Dear weekend,
I came to the realization that I need to slow down on a few things. Taking a break on a few things and probably going to stop drinking alcohol all together. I drank twice this week once being entirely trashed and pukey and the second being pretty sober and such. I suppose they even out but alcohol you’re just like soda to me you need to get out of my life and I’ve been soda-free for over a year now…exception being alcohol. You two taste so good together. That is why I must leave you guys. No more trips for awhile. No more smoking for awhile even though all that shit was fun while it lasted. Mxe, 2C-B and such you’re going out of my life for awhile too. Need to detoxify my body. Maybe even get into eating vegan for a little while. So thank you for letting me know this. What seem to be liver pains are not cool to deal with.
On another note, Halloween was decent. My makeup turned out alright. I pretty much was a zombie. I know nothing original here, but I did have a good excuse; I worked till 1030 that night. Some pretty slutty costumes but hey I suppose most girls get away with it for the holidays. 
(cousin Samantha and I)
So, he finally opened up to me this past few days. It feels good maybe it’s a start to something? Who knows. I went to the football game and watched movies with him and his room-mate. Read some of his writings and it showed that I was right. He was very depressed and lonely. I think he also realized that I’m going to do what I want and drugs weren’t something I did because of him. Even though we were not together I still did them. He also took me home one night after I was too trashed to drive recently. It was a very pukey night.That is something I am somewhat disappointed about. I told him he needs to be absolute to his decision. I’ll give it a month before I actually make mine up aswell. He kissed me this morning. Really wasn’t expecting that at all. Was kinda taken back by that….I guess time will only tell.
