February 2012
2 posts
Not sure why I feel so under the weather. Emotionally upset. Physically in pain.
Ready to fast forward 2012 to a happier day to come. Why am I aways upset in February?
January 2012
2 posts
So, it has been some time since I, myself wrote an update or posted something of my own. This week has been a little boring. Aside from all the drama that I don’t have in my life at the moment, I find myself slipping into “hermit phase” kinda sucks because everyone keeps trying to hang out with me. I love being alone right now. JUST FUCKING BEING. No I’m not utterly...
December 2011
2 posts
Wow, so I don’t think I have been so worried about something as I am now. Just really hoping and praying and crossing so many fucking fingers it’s crazy. New job promotion may be the end of me and my job or it can be the start of something new. I broke out in a sweat today. Also I feel as though I am keeping certain people addicted to things they don’t need.
So, dreams 3 and 4 have taken place this week. About a week ago Sunday I smoked with Sherrick. I miss that dude. We’d be clowning so much at work when we worked together. I’m really gonna miss him when he leaves for California for his music.
Cut to the chase dream #3 was pretty intense. It had John Lithgow in it. There was a part where I was being choked and what woke me up was me...
November 2011
4 posts
So, lately I have been drinking a lot. For the past three weekends I have gotten entirely so trashed that I was sick at work and so on. This weekend this girl wont be drinking smoking or whatever. Its time for a break.
I’ve been feeling sick on and off. Extremely tired and such. I just want to sleep and lay in bed be by myself. That’s hard and a lot of friends don’t understand...
“When a baby comes into the world, its hands are clenched, right? Like this?” He...”
– Mitch Albom (via harleyelisabeth
)
Dream #2
So, its been a week since I’ve been crazy high. I’d almost say high is an understatment. So I get those weird dreams you know well I had one last night. It was about a portal between two sides of the Earth. The goverment was making certain people go through the portal to the other side. So there were alot of families split apart. I had to go through the portal and since there was high...
Dear weekend, I came to the realization that I need to slow down on a few things. Taking a break on a few things and probably going to stop drinking alcohol all together. I drank twice this week once being entirely trashed and pukey and the second being pretty sober and such. I suppose they even out but alcohol you’re just like soda to me you need to get out of my life and I’ve been...
October 2011
7 posts
My Top 5 Artists (Week Ending 2011-10-30) →
Avey Tare and Panda Bear (1)
Braids (1)
Beach House (1)
Shabazz Palaces (1)
tUnE-yArDs (1)
Imported from Last.fm Tumblr by JoeLaz
Anxiety anxiety how you have come to visit Are you something that is a requisite? Away away please just let me be I just want to be normal can’t you see Throbbing throbbing my heart beats I think I’ll need to take a seat Breathing, tearing-up, clanging, empty fists is something I will not miss
My Top 5 Artists (Week Ending 2011-10-16) →
Panda Bear (2)
Aphex Twin (1)
The Flashbulb (1)
Casino Versus Japan (1)
Plaid (1)
Imported from Last.fm Tumblr by JoeLaz
little thoughts.
I know I haven’t updated lately, but today I am! This week I actually put blogging on my to do list. I need to get a few things out. I know you think about me and what I am doing and how I am dealing with everything in life because if you didn’t then you wouldn’t be asking how things are going and asking to be in my life. I am confused and you cant just waltz right back into my...
August 2011
10 posts
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Well, today marks the end of it I suppose. Unless, well its just a big ugly joke. I’m horrible at reading people I found out. I wish people were more straight forward with me. It sucks. Spencer called it quits on me. I’m not sure if he’s just afraid of what our relationship has spun into or if its truly the fact that he said he wants to be alone. Honestly, who REALLY wants to be...
“I just don’t want to be unhappy. I’m so picky about everything I do, what I...”
Lolla weekend
I feel that I should blog about my experience this past weekend. I need some ventilation.
Wednesday: Hung out at Taylors with everyone and tried MXE and Triplec for the first time. Trampolines are fun and me and spencer layed outside watching the stars which looked more along the lines of flickering light bulbs that are thousands of miles a way. Even seen a falling star. Strobe lights and dubstep...
July 2011
9 posts
I absolutely love her voice. I think if you...
Sat with Cortney last night smoking our brains...
Truth be told I regret...
You know how everyone seems to say, don’t regret it was a learning experience? Well, thing is I miss one of my best guy friends. We have only been friends and I freaked out when he wanted to pursue things. I sat and thought about that today. We were very different but yet I don’t get why I flipped out and stopped talking to him. I really regret not continuing to be friends because I...
June 2011
9 posts
So, lately things have been somewhat a cluster-fuck around here. I have been working more than usual, which its wearing me out! Seriously, I dont give a fuck about your problems at customer service I just have to act like I care. I don’t want to hear about how things didn’t work out for you at this store because honestly, you should have looked at what you were buying the first time....
May 2011
3 posts
“You take a born-pretty girl and you dress her up in pretty things, curl her...”
– Beautiful and Depraved (via julie911)
I scared myself the other night but it felt good to live on edge.
April 2011
2 posts
Tonight is the night to attempt jäger floaties!! :) ice-cream and jäger and some rootbeer. Margaritas from Walmart are good so that’s a check.
“You are the only one holding yourself back.”